Backlash

Who would have thought that your average 25-year-old lady writing a blog about personal experience's would cause so much backlash? I mean, I had a pretty good feeling going into writing that some of the unturned stones would cause some hubbub in the family unit.

I never want to portray myself the victim in my writings. I am merely just another human being effected by words and actions of others that is brave enough to share those experiences with those who might find comfort in knowing that if I got through it, there is no reason why they shouldn't either.

If we are going to be 100% transparent, I started this blog to let steam off of my chest that has been boiling up for the past several years. I always felt that I was someone who pushed words and actions down that hurt me and tried not to let them bother me too much. But after while of sweeping things under the rug, the rug becomes lumpy and hard to navigate.

I have had the tough conversations in the past with family members explaining my hurt, only to get thrown a "suck it up" or "I'm sorry you feel that way". You can only take the advice of "suck it up" or "I'm sorry you feel that way" for so long until you have had enough of it. New flash but "sucking it up" doesn't change the way your actions made me feel, a "I'm sorry you feel that way" doesn't change the fact that I feel like complete shit, but it's ok now because you're sorry I feel that way?

The purpose of my blog is to leave the person that is struggling, feeling a little less empty once they are finished reading. I myself have felt that feeling of emptiness and loneliness for so many years that I became accustomed to those feelings. I never knew that wasn't a normal feeling to have up until recently.

The backlash that I have gotten has been a lot of hearsay from a very unreliable source that is trying to hurt me. I usually just chalk it up to that individual being an asshole that really despises to see any kind of good that is going on in my world. I have had this person say, "so and so has reached out to me and thinks that you're going off the rails" or "if so and so can see through your bullshit anyone can". I mean, if anyone is really that concerned about my mental health and my wellbeing, give me a call if you're really that concerned about me, until then "suck it up" and "I'm sorry it made you feel that way".

I don't write what I write to get an audience to feel bad for my mishaps. I write because I feel as though it has brought my soul some comfort in knowing that these writings have been somewhat helpful to others and maybe help give some insight as well for those tough times.

You will never be able to please everyone. No one wants to be called out for their shit. But sometimes that SHIT needs to come to light in order to get through the healing process.

The words I have written are as raw and real as you can get. I don't fabricate, I don't elaborate, it is simply words written based off of emotional experience.

This blog has been a BIG factor in my healing. It has been so comforting to hear the feedback from others that say they enjoy what I have written thus far. It has been a real overwhelming experience to be told that this blog has brought those some comfort during a hard time.

Writing is something that I have always enjoyed doing since I was a child. If I can take away one thing from this experience so far it would have to be, that not everyone is going to be on board with the things that you chose to do for yourself and at the end of the day, it is truly about how you feel.

Sometimes, you need to make it about yourself. You need to take the time to experience your feelings and your truths. If others are put off, or uncomfortable about how YOU feel, maybe revaluate who you are surrounding yourself with. People who love you and care about you will support you in your journey no matter how crazy you might seem. Keep fighting the good fight and don't stop being the authentic YOU.

Peace&Love

The Daily Extrovert